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I AM SURPRISED I FOUND THIS SITE Mike

rough week It's been quite a week, my direct deposit started for SSD so no more road trips to deposit the checks, that will help. Joshua graduated kindergarten yesterday, he was so proud of himself, as well as he should be. Michelle brought the kids over so Grandma could spoil them, they went to wal-mart and loaded up on goodies, chocolate, drinks etc, they made little piglets out of themselves. In the middle of this bright afternoon, Sherry called it appears Marvin has got himself busted again for dealing, Sherry thinks he's going to get 5 years this time, me I think they are going to add the habitual felon charge and just throw away the key. Michelle wanted to know if anyone ever calls just to say Hi or is it always problems. I said Bingo, that's why I don't answer the phone. I just let it ring, there is never good news on the other end. They stayed until about midnight, Audrey has an appt this morning at 8am for registration for Kindergarten for next fall. I remember the day she was born it was right after Dori and I got together. It was the first time I met, any of Dori's family, it was at the hospital when Michelle was having Audrey. Dori had bought some of the bacon wrapped filets at wal mart, I haven't had one of them in about 5 years, I forgot how good they were. It is a great feeling not having to worry if we will have money to get the car fixed, or to pay the bills if a check gets lost. I never ever want to live that way again. I did not plan on becoming disabled at 45, this is not a retirement I would wish on anyone, I would give it all back if I could go back to carrying mail and get rid of the heart problems and back pain that constantly bother me. The back pain is like nothing I have ever felt before, there are weeks when I can't get comfortable, I can't sleep from the pain, I can't sit, stand or lay down in any one position for very long.

rough week It's been quite a week, my direct deposit started for SSD so no more road trips to deposit the checks, that will help. Joshua graduated kindergarten yesterday, he was so proud of himself, as well as he should be. Michelle brought the kids over so Grandma could spoil them, they went to wal-mart and loaded up on goodies, chocolate, drinks etc, they made little piglets out of themselves. In the middle of this bright afternoon, Sherry called it appears Marvin has got himself busted again for dealing, Sherry thinks he's going to get 5 years this time, me I think they are going to add the habitual felon charge and just throw away the key. Michelle wanted to know if anyone ever calls just to say Hi or is it always problems. I said Bingo, that's why I don't answer the phone. I just let it ring, there is never good news on the other end. They stayed until about midnight, Audrey has an appt this morning at 8am for registration for Kindergarten for next fall. I remember the day she was born it was right after Dori and I got together. It was the first time I met, any of Dori's family, it was at the hospital when Michelle was having Audrey. Dori had bought some of the bacon wrapped filets at wal mart, I haven't had one of them in about 5 years, I forgot how good they were. It is a great feeling not having to worry if we will have money to get the car fixed, or to pay the bills if a check gets lost. I never ever want to live that way again. I did not plan on becoming disabled at 45, this is not a retirement I would wish on anyone, I would give it all back if I could go back to carrying mail and get rid of the heart problems and back pain that constantly bother me. The back pain is like nothing I have ever felt before, there are weeks when I can't get comfortable, I can't sleep from the pain, I can't sit, stand or lay down in any one position for very long.

dealing with the VA Well it has been a wild month. I got a letter from the VA they Service Connected me for 50% from PTSD. They totally ignored the statements from the pyschiatrist that has been treating me for 2 plus years and went with a 10 minute exam by a pyscholigist that needed an MD to co-sign the report. He wasn't even in the room for the exam. The strange world of VA C&P exams. They have me scheduled for a echo cardiogram on 8 June and a C&P exam on 10 June, so after they rule on the heart issue then they will decide if I am 100% schedular or if they are going to award TDIU. I am holding out for 100% schedular P&T. I am on SSD, they know I am not going to get better, why should the VA assume I will. Dori had me added to the checking accounts after we received the back pay from the VA, I was surprised my credit had cleared enough for me to have a bank acct again. I have sent applications for Voc Rehab with the VA, they have a program called Living Services that provides items for quality of life, hobbies etc, I am going to see if I can get a new computer and a digital camera with a printer for pics.. I also sent in applications for the one time vehicle grant for the power chair, and the one time grant for a handicap accessible home. I will see how that turns out, with a 50,000 down payment I think anyone would finance the home. It seems greedy but I have been waiting three years for them to service connect me, we have had to do for so long, I am just trying to get life right now that it's available.

soldiers used as guinea pigsI got another letter from the VA saying they are still processing my claim for compensation I wonder how long they will drag their feet, oh well they are saving 2500 a month for us, by the time they get done playing games we might be able to pay cash for a house. There is deinately something wrong with a system that allows it's employees to make the customer's suffer for perceived acts aginst the agency. Contacting a politician is an extreme act according to the VA. So they delay the claim for 60 days for each letter. Time goes on and the money piles up.

soldiers used as guinea pigs I seemed to have punched some wrong buttons on one of the boards I post on. I still don't think people should expect total disability for a minor irritating problem like a rash. I just said that it was easier to get disabled as mental than it would be to get a total disability for a rash. Some people just need to get over it. Life goes on Mich state won the game against Kentucky last nght in double OT, they both deserved to win, but unfortunately they couldn't. I expect I will hear more of the kid Hayes from Kentucky he was a true sportsman even when he fouled out of the game in the first OT.Even Mich St coach gave him a hug he is a fine player and should go high in the draft.

soldiers used as guinea pigs I got the letter in the mail today to Jim StClair the aide for Congressman Wilson, he has sent me 2 e mails asking for the written release and what I want from the VA, he seems determined to make them do right by me, he did not like what he read in the newspaper article at all. It appears he is not about to let them play games like Sen Graham has. It is kind of neat to have a Congressman write me 2 e mails because he is interested in me. I am finally starting to feel better about this claim after all, after the past 3 years I was not sure I was going to live long enough to win.

soldiers used as guinea pigs I am having a "Michael Jackson" type day, my back pain is excrutiating and I can't sit still long enough to ride in the car to the hospital today so I called and changed the appt. They were very nice about it. It was an appt within a month which for the VA in itself is an amazing feat. I wonder if my SC has come thru, as I understand all the 100% vets are to be scheduled within a 30 day period for whatever appts they need. Maybe there is hope after all.